I know it’s only a few days and it’s not too late to get back on track. I have two more days before I have to weigh again and then Thursday I start another cycle of juice cleansing. my goal was to not gain any weight back this week or if I do keep it under 5 lbs. Right now I am afraid that’s not going to happen. SO I am going to have to keep it really clean tomorrow and Wednesday and work my butt off those two days. What really scares me is that this is a start to a downward spiral of getting out of control again.
I hate how much attention I have to pay to the food I eat. I wish there were an easy button where I could have a treat once and then walk away. I was at that point two weeks ago but it seems like a trigger was pulled and I am slipping backwards. I know this is not the ending…it’s the progression of the journey and I have to find a way to push past it and get back on track. I just wish it were not this difficult all the time.
I was just thinking today about the parent I want to be for my kids and the partner I want to be for the man that I want to spend my life with and siting on the sofa eating cookies is not her. So why can’t that be enough of a reason for me to say no some days?